I have been feeling extremely depressed lately. Somehow, I feel that I couldn't manage all my roles in life and I just feel like a loser. Be it a daughter, a sister, a student, a group-mate, a tuition in-charge, a friend and even a girlfriend, I fail. Initially, to comfort myself, I thought it was okay if I fail at certain things because I'm sure there are other things that I'm good at. But apparently not, I realised. I realised I just couldn't handle everything well. For all the failures and awkwardness that I've been experiencing lately, I feel like hiding to somewhere that I could be alone, yes, just me, or perhaps with my closest superboy. I want to disappear badly, but I just couldn't let go of my responsibilities. I worry, in fact, my biggest worry revolves around my family and my tuition group. I didn't want my parents/sis to worry about me, neither would I want to leave QSN in such irresponsible manner. At the very least, I would have told Yuyan about it. In fact, I'm glad that I still have him. He's not only my working partner, he's also a friend whom I can confide in. I no longer worry about 'best-friend' or whatsoever, I think having him here sometimes to HTHT with me is just fine. "Things will only get better", he encouraged. Yes, I believe so. If life is going on a downhill, the probability of things getting better is in fact higher. So Shiqi shall continue to fight! Bigmummy, please bless me with courage!