I'm glad to be back on track, living my life the way I always wanted.
But oh well, this is only the first day, too soon to feel satisfied.
Let's see if everything can last until the end of 2014.

Anyway, thanks to bigmummy and superboy;
No more feeling torn and shattered.
No more uneasiness in my stomach.
No more breathlessness.
Now, it's the usual chirpy, cute, lovely and sunshine shiqi! :D
The sweet little kiddish girl, who is always so blessed.

the girl whom I love, so much. ♥

我好想哭，想把眼泪哭干，然后回复过正常的生活。

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I feel so comforted with superboy's reply:
当你要哭时, 告诉我。我会借你我的耳朵和肩膀哭。

Edited 14Aug 08:08

我回来了。 After 18 days of OCSP + R&R, I'm finally back home.

Tough 18 days, but I'm glad that I managed to pull through. #proudofshiqi
Well, no matter how bitter the experience was, I've certainly grown from it.

"我们严格自己，宽容他人"
These words kept me going throughout the journey, especially when I was angry/disappointed. Everyone thinks we've done an incredible job. Hmm.. perhaps we did, by bringing so much joy and laughter to the children. But how long would that last? I thought it would be better if we had clearer objectives of what we want the kids to takeaway after the 12 days of programmes and the programmes could have been smoother if more detailed planning was done (E.g. The person in-charge of briefing, the transition, the exact things to be taught, translation for the Chinese words to use, etc.).
That being said, I just want to emphasize that these are just my personal opinions. Although I do get angry/upset with all these details when it wasn't done properly, I totally understand that everyone is learning. And I know the progs people put in much more effort than me. They have probably been meeting up frequently, cracking their heads to brainstorm the best activities, writing and re-writing proposals just to get it approved. All that I've seen, or probably was unhappy about, are things that I should reflect on when I plan lessons/activities for my children next time. #waytogoshiqi!

"Just do it!" These three words, the slogan of Nike, sounds simple and straightforward.
Yet it was never easy for me to live up to it. I'm always striving for "doing it well" rather than "just do it". But here, in this OCSP, I did it. There were so many moments where no preparation was done, classroom teaching, briefings, emcee-ing, etc. I had no choice, but to "just do it". I could have prepared during late nights, but I was too tired to do so. All I needed was just sleep, or some texting with my family or my friends in SG. To me, these texts signify love and concern, encouraging me to stay strong. And I want to specially thank my confidant, for always being with me when I need (especially to rant, hahaha). So I guess I've learnt it well, sometimes it's better to not think about it and go with the slogan of "just to it!". Worrying takes away today's peace anyway.